First and foremost I’d like to say that I love you. No matter what you have felt in the past from other Christians who treated you poorly in the name of what they believed to be right, know that we aren’t all the same. I genuinely care about you even if we don’t see eye to eye. I’m not hear trying to convince you that God exists, I just need to get some things of my chest.
I grew up in a Christian household, with Christian parents who taught me about Jesus from an early age. Some say that I was brainwashed into believing what I believe, others say that since I didn’t have an opportunity to partake in other “worldly” things, that I was conditioned to follow a religion. I don’t have a huge story about how God saved me from drugs, alcohol, or any other addiction like that. I’ve never struggled with any of those. If I’m honest, I’ve had a tendency to lust over women, and money. I guess that shows that I’m a human too. Because I know you have probably struggled with that to some point too. We’re not so far off, I guess.
Your preconceived notions of what I believe probably come from TV shows, movies, and things you heard on the radio. I’m not judging you for that, I’m just telling you that they are mostly wrong. I don’t have some agenda, to hate on anybody who doesn’t believe the way I do. I believe we all struggle with Sin, yes, even those of us who claim a relationship with Christ. Because of that, we are all imperfect. I know you can probably agree with that.
This is where our differences are so notable. While we are all imperfect, you blame your imperfections on human nature and are content with that. I blame my imperfections on my human nature because of sin. God knows that I’m not perfect, but I’m striving to be more like him. Perfection personified. I will never reach a point where I am perfect, if I did, I wouldn’t need a Savior. But I’m content with that. Just because I’m pursuing what I know to be right, doesn’t make you any less than me. We just both believe different things.
The important thing is that I believe in grace. I’m not ok thinking that one day I will just die, cease to exist. I choose to believe that there is someone out there who has better things in store for me than I could ever dream or imagine. It would be hard for me to believe that there is no purpose for us to be here on this earth. If that’s the case, why would we even exist. If there was no purpose for us, why are we even living? Don’t hate on me for believing something that sounds “far-fetched”, when you believe that you are just here to party it up, and live how you want to live, then die. My ideals about an after life, seem just as crazy as your ideals about living and dying with no purpose.
So I just want to leave you with this; whenever you feel your heart strings being pulled, and you start to question everything that you have believed about life, know that it’s not just your body reacting to your thoughts. It’s the loving touch of the Holy Spirit trying to soften your hardened heart. If you ever need to talk, I’m here with open arms.
Your friend, the Believer.