You could do better than me.

“You could do better than him.”

“He’s not attractive.”

“I don’t know what you see in him.”

“He has nothing going for him.”

“What would make you like a guy like that.”

“You should date someone within your race.”

“He has bad intentions with you.”

“He doesn’t care about you.”

Those are all things that ex’s Mom’s have said about me. I don’t know what’s worse, that they said that stuff about me, not knowing anything about me; or the fact that their daughters told me. Because for the longest, I believed every filthy, rotten thing that was said about me. I’m not still hung up on any of them, I just needed to vent. It’s hard when you aren’t “blessed with good looks” in a society that is obsessed with beauty. It’s hard when your heart has been mistreated so much, that you can hardly find the broken pieces to put them back together. I’m not hopeless. I’m not desperate. I’m not worried. I’m just broken, and tattered, and weathered. I’ve been insulted my whole life, and I get tired of biting my tongue so hard that it literally bleeds just to keep from hurting someones feelings. I know that I talk alot about my future wife, and all that kind of stuuff, and It’s whatever. I know she’s out there, I just pray that her Mom isn’t that mean to me. That she’ll see me for who I am, like her daughter will.

End rant!

2 thoughts on “You could do better than me.

  1. Loved this… only bc you express so much feeling into how much society embraces these iconic thoughts like fairytale weddings and ryan reynolds husbands, and love stories made like movies and that is the biggest problem w our society and that is why divorce rate is so high these days… people rush in. No one takes time to soak in REALITY. They all live in a fantasy world… I am glad to see that you embrace who you are and what you stand for and that you do not give in to cruelties the unfortunately exist in this shallow, superficial world. You will find that person that feels about you the way you feel about them. That will most definitely will come with time but at least you are recognizing it… Also, don’t bite your tongue. The truth hurts, but if you really care about someone, they need to hear it regardless… They may not like it and you may be resented for it, but that does not mean that you didnt get through to them and left them in deep thought about what they have done, etc.
    This was a genuine post. That will be your most desirable trait.

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